I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this but I just wanted to share something I can't share anywhere else but in gayheaven since you guys are so awesome and accepting of all differences.
So it's no secret that BDSM is one of the most common fetish and I am particularly into it as well. I'm a sub and had recently served my first master. And it felt GREAT. Serving on my knees till part of my knee cap is now numb, probably because I kneeled for three hours, pleasuring my master with my tongue, taking rubber balls up my hole, licking His feet while he spanks me, taking his piss.. It all felt.... right.
I used to read all these stories and think it's just exaggerations but it's true! I felt like I found my place where I'm truly happy.
But fantasy is just fantasy, master had to leave as he was just traveling (from another country) and I'm now back to my boring life.
Now I can't jack off without picturing my master's face and balls and it's killing me that I can't be his forever. I no longer feel the urge to have sex with "vanilla" guys.
I often wonder, if only I could give up on everything, my career, my life and live as his property.
Anyone else here a sub/slave? Anyone else felt the same way? How do you cope with it? How do you stop yourself from thinking about your master? (assuming your master was also traveling and hence could not be permanent)
So it's no secret that BDSM is one of the most common fetish and I am particularly into it as well. I'm a sub and had recently served my first master. And it felt GREAT. Serving on my knees till part of my knee cap is now numb, probably because I kneeled for three hours, pleasuring my master with my tongue, taking rubber balls up my hole, licking His feet while he spanks me, taking his piss.. It all felt.... right.
I used to read all these stories and think it's just exaggerations but it's true! I felt like I found my place where I'm truly happy.
But fantasy is just fantasy, master had to leave as he was just traveling (from another country) and I'm now back to my boring life.
Now I can't jack off without picturing my master's face and balls and it's killing me that I can't be his forever. I no longer feel the urge to have sex with "vanilla" guys.
I often wonder, if only I could give up on everything, my career, my life and live as his property.
Anyone else here a sub/slave? Anyone else felt the same way? How do you cope with it? How do you stop yourself from thinking about your master? (assuming your master was also traveling and hence could not be permanent)
