For some reasons I missed the time to visit the heaven regularly last month. So I missed your cry into the darkness of your life. I know a lot of people see life as a gift. For me life is more an very intense experience. During once's lifetime there are several periods in which it is difficult to be good friends with yourself. And that is hard, because he is the only one who shares your life for 24 hours a day. Normally those periods vanish. But sometimes it is wise to seek some help. So I think that your decision to go home for a while is a good decision. Try to get friends with yourself again. Be nice for your reflection. Never seek a solution in drinking alcohol. That is a drug, sometimes nice, but never a cure. I will miss you. Hope to see you soon.
A big hug,
Tjerk