You are currently viewing our forum as a guest which gives you limited access.
By joining you will gain full access to thousands of Videos, Pictures & Much More.
Membership is absolutely FREE and registration is FAST & SIMPLE so please, Register Today and join one of the friendliest communities on the net!
You must be at least 18 years old to legally access this forum.
Hello Guest,
Thanks for remaining an active member on GayHeaven. We hope you've enjoyed the forum so far.
Our records indicate that you have not posted on our forums in several weeks. Why not dismiss this notice & make your next post today by doing one of the following:
Gay Picture Collections - Share any pictures you may have collected from blogs and other sites. Don't know how to post? Click HERE to visit our easy 3-steps tutorial for picture posting.
Show Yourself Off - Brave enough to post your own pictures or videos? Let us see, enjoy & comment on that for you.
Gay Clips - Start sharing hot video clips you may have. Don't know how to get started? Click HERE to view our detailed tutorial for video posting.
As you can see there are a bunch of options mentioned in here and much more available for you to start participating today! Before making your first post, please don't forget to read the Forum Rules.
Active and contributing members will earn special ranks.Click HERE to view the full list of ranks & privileges given to active members & how you can easily obtain them.
Please do not flood the forum with "Thank you" posts. Instead, please use the "thanks button"
We Hope you enjoy the forum & thanks for your efforts! The GayHeaven Team.
Dear GayHeaven users,
We are happy to announce that we have successfully upgraded our forum to a new more reliable and overall better platform called XenForo.
Any feedback is welcome and we hope you get to enjoy this new platform for years and years to come and, as always, happy posting!
c'mon you Thor...of COURSE! Why the hell else would most of us be here? You've posed this question before so we know you did too...so why don't you start it out and tell us who? Don't want to sound like an ass but you do this repeatedly....and it's not fun to keep ripping scabs off old wounds...just saying...
Oh yes...currently in such a situation...for the first time in my life...and no matter how hard I try to move on, since I doubt anything will ever come of it, it just feels worse. Its hard being single.
I've had it once or twice, but mostly I've always been single, out of choice really, unless I'm just really fussy
Just don't be frightened of letting it happen again. Sometimes a single break is good, but if someone crosses your path never let any past hurts or losses influence your future too much
Yes,Thor,I have.I presume that you mean the unrequited kind.For me,it kind of feels like substance-abuse:at first there's an incredible high as you fall head over heels in love & worship the person's mind,body&soul.Then there's the incredible low when reality inevitably catches up & stomps your spirit into the dirt.Ironically,my own answer to this excrutiating situation is...substance-abuse.I thank God this doesn't happen to me too often because I'd be Keith Richards by now.If you think that's pathetic,I once knew someone whose answer was to sit alone in a darkened room & fondle a loaded handgun.That's even less helpful.Sorry,Thor,I don't seem to know much tonight.
Oh yes and the hurting will never ever go away.... the hurt and grief has taken psossesion of my body and soul and hurts ...always.
It´s been almost 4 years since he held my hand the last time.
Amost 4 years since I kissed him goodbye - not knowing it was going to be goodbye forever. That Death was waiting for him ... and that my beautiful BF embraced him.
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
I don´t know when this grief will ever let go of me. I just know that I grieve ...
i have but not to the extent of some of you. mine is because im married and more than anything i dont want to hurt her because i do love her. but i have fallen for a couple of guys that have no idea that i feel that way about them cuz all they see is the str8 married me and not the "bi/gay" side of me thats hidden from the world. so i repress those feelings and seek companionship (or as close to it as i can get) through the online community. some would say that im living a lie (many have before and many more will after) but to me im living the life that i choose too. i didnt realize until later in life how strong my feelings were towards other men were. and by that point i was already in love with a woman. ive talked to a few people online that it simply started as just talking about a common topic, which lead into emails back in forth, which then lead into them wanting to meet and have more of me than i can give to them. i was honest and up front so when they asked to meet and i said no, i then became the "asshole" who "led them on." i told them upfront i was unavailable and the cirstances around it. and if i were available i would have loved to meet and have a relationship with them. but im not. i have cared deeply for some guys only to have it turn sour and just make me all the more glad that im not out in the world. but my mind can always dream. and i do think what it would be like to be with them. so my fantasies are just that, fantasies. to me theres nothing wrong with talking to people online and looking at cock because im not acting on it. not that im a virgin though. i did have to experience it a couple of times in life. and that cherry was most definetly popped.... in my str8 life im the dominate top, in my bi/gay life im a submissive bottom who just wants to please and be loved.
Yes I have and when he passed away four years ago, I have just began to start dating again. However, I loved him so much that a lot of times when we would have sex, it was so intense with so much passion, that many times we would cry in each other's arms afterwards..I know this may sound corny to whomever would read this..but .it is what it is..and I will cherish my time with him for the rest of my life...