right now,i have a crush on this guy that i really like. he's not that handsome but he has a nice personality (and nice body too.) sometimes he's nice to me, but sometimes he's not, and sometimes he even leads me on and tells me that he want to kiss me and hug me, he always stays close to me, puts his arms around me and sometimes even touches some erogenous zones.
since i really like him, i do a lot of things to help him, but i don't even get a thank you for it, other times he even insults my work (maybe cause he doesn't know i'm dying to lick his armpits) but it's cause he's joking and not really serious. and one of the things that turns me on is that he likes HIS armpits. he always scratches them, smells them and he even tells me that his armpit is sweaty.
i really like him, but he doesn't know my sexuality and i think he's straight (he leads me on though as i stated earlier) cause sometimes i see him flirting with other girls. i don't want to confess for fear or rejection and ruining our friendship.
i've had lots of crushes, but i didn't confess to anyone of them, since no one really knows my true sexual orientation, and because of that i have become a jaded person. i'm still in love with him, but recently he's becoming distant to me, and sometimes completely ignores me, and sometimes just strikes a conversation with me for no apparent reason. i don't know what to do since this will be our last year of being together.
i've been in love with him for 2 years, but i told you that i am a jaded person so even if i lose him, i won't get hurt that much, i might get hurt but only a little, cause right now i am expecting the worst possible scenario. sad isn't it?