I am leaving

[jyotib]

Hello Everybody,
I have formally requested for deleting my account from this forum.
I am leaving.
I am not a contributor so I won't be missed by anybody.
I personally enjoyed this forum and would like to thank each and every member for their support and generosity. At present, I feel out of place. I feel that I don't belong here. This is not my place. I have got a lot from here and I don't have any grievance against anybody. So, Thanks again for everything.
From my childhood I am a very shy and introvert person. I have my own world and I was always comfortable there alone. I love the world of my books. I am melancholic by nature. I tend to fall into depression very often and I go through medical help. That changes the situation for a while but again the cycle of melancholia begins. I am quite used to it.
People around me always told me to be more open and more verbal about myself. I was reluctant. But when I tried to open up, when I felt that somebody is listening, somebody is at least trying to understand me, I got rejected and dumped. Now I feel that it's better to be lonely than being rejected. So, time has come for me to return to the safe haven of my cocoon. That's why I am leaving.
I am extremely grateful to each and every one of you to bear with me.
Thanks & Adieu

 

[jw4833]

The reason I had joined this forum was the fact that my partner had passed away a year prior to joining. However, since I went through a deep depression from his passing...I went through therapy as well in order to deal with the grief as well and it was suggested that I joined a forum of this nature in order to start opening up again and the forum would be a good platform for this because you would get bias opinions/advice from individuals who do not know you. In some ways, this was the case but in other ways it was not. What some people tend to not understand is when someone takes a step to open up and share personal situations that it can be scary and what makes this situation even worse is when you receive cynical, nasty remarks/responses and the majority of them are not related to what you are initially posting. Furthermore, when these individuals take it upon themselves to submit these responses...they actually have no idea what effect they have on those individuals who are opening their hearts/feelings to you. Unfortunately, to some degree...its like being bullied for speaking your truth. I tend to make a practice of if someone post something that I can't seem to comprehend to...I would not give a response at all and just respond to those posts that I can relate to or I have experienced in my personal life and offer that advice because I've dealt and been through the situation which gives me that voice to speak upon it because I don't understand the purpose of posting nasty, smart ass, cynical responses when I can just keep those thoughts to myself. Lastly, many times a lot of past members leave the forum due to this behavior. However, whatever your reasons for leaving....I wish you the best in your future endeavors and I think if you obtain a lesson from being a part of this forum whether good or bad ...I hope these lessons gives you growth to become a better person within your life.