Hey Guys!
I hope all of you are doing well and you all had a great weekend....
I have an issue that I thought I would share with the forum. This is in regard to my mailman, Ruben. Before I get into my situation, let me give you some background information on Ruben. He is the neighborhood mailman and I've been knowing him for over 15 years. He was my mailman in my old neighborhood and over the past five years, he's been my mailman for my current residence. Ruben is extremely handsome with an incredible body (he's half Greek and half Latino) and although he is known as the "ladies man" around the community, he is also a lot of gay guys' fantasy man as well especially due to the fact that he wore very tight uniform pants and in the summer time, he wore thigh hugging shorts that left nothing to the imagination. I've met Ruben in my old neighborhood initially and since that meeting, he has been a major part of my life so to speak through all the highs and lows within my personal life. There has been many times that whenever I was going through something, he would stop by during his route and check on me to see if I was okay or looking for a cup of coffee, breakfast or even a hug when he was feeling low. Once I revealed to Ruben that I was a gay man, this did not hinder our friendship at all. Even when gossiping gay guys would see us hanging out on the street and began to speculate if something was going on between us intimately, this never stopped him from distancing himself from our friendship.
Ruben began to share a lot of personal details about his life with me such as him being divorce and having teenage children. He would tell me about his current girlfriend and seek my advice on certain issues he was dealing with also. Many times, Ruben would come by and hang out with me on his off time. He was known for bringing beer and ordering pizza and hanging out all night watching movies with me whenever I was not out on a date or dating anyone seriously at the time. Ruben would always question me about being single because since he had been hanging out with me a lot, he felt that I was a great catch and found it hard to believe why no one had been knocking down my door? Once I explained to him that being single at that time was a personal choice, it wasn't much longer after that he became very protective and selfish of whom I was dating.
He knew the guy who had sexually attacked me and he knew my late partner as well. When I was enduring the aftermath of these two tragic events, he was there for me and would sometimes stay the night whenever I was alone. I remember when the sexual abuser and I began to hang out a lot, he had mentioned to me several times that he felt that Ruben was jealous of us seeing each other which prompted him to come to the conclusion that Ruben had a crush on me. In fact, the sexual abusers' father would tease me about Ruben whenever he and I would indulge in one-on-one conversation. When I would question him about why he would say that, he would tell me also that he had noticed how Ruben would act whenever he saw me.
Nonetheless, I never took none of this information to heart until Michael and I became a couple. Although he respected Michael and treated him nice whenever he was in his company, but he did not act the same when he saw me. However, whenever he saw me alone, he would make a point to ask me if Michael was treating me good. There were times when he would tell me about other gay guys hitting on him as if he was hoping I would get jealous or if I walked by one of the local restaurants while jogging, he would make a point to knock on the window to get my attention because he was with a woman but I would tease him about it which would make him change the subject. It was also a common practice for me to give Ruben a six-pack of Heineken every Christmas which he always felt was a thoughtful gesture from me but there were times that I wondered if he took my kind gesture for more than what was presented by the way he would look at me.
Last year over the Christmas holidays, he came by during his mail route and asked me to give him a hug because he needed one from me. He closed the door and dropped his mail bag on the floor and he grabbed me so tight and so long that I began to sensed that it was much more going on that meets the eye but I needed more proof before confirming my assumptions. After the hug, he kissed me on the neck and asked me if I wasn't busy, could he stop by later on that evening because he needed someone to talk to. In my mind, I'm wondering why he's not going to his current girlfriend? (he has a lot of female friends...) but nonetheless, I told him yes because as I stated earlier, he has always been there for me. He brought over a few bottles of wine and Chinese food. After the first bottle of wine, Ruben had gotten quite comfortable and began to take off his shoes and shirt. In fact, he became so comfortable that when I was laid out on the couch, he came over and opened my legs and laid in between them with my arms wrapped around his upper torso. Although nothing sexual happened, we did fell asleep into each others' arms and he stayed the rest of the night cuddled up in my arms.
A few days later, I was coming home from the neighborhood gym and Ruben was in the lobby putting mail in the mailboxes. When I saw him, he was on his cell phone and therefore, I just waved and all of a sudden, he pulled me up against the wall with this devilish smile on his face and trapped me with his body where I wasn't able to move while still having a conversation with someone on his cell phone. While holding his cell phone with one hand, he took his other hand and put my hands on his butt while he grind his cock up against my crotch until I felt the stiffness of his cock. He finally moved his body and let me go on about my business. However, within a few minutes, I hear a knock on my door and when I looked through the keyhole, I figured it had to be him because anyone else would have to be buzzed in or would call from the lobby to be entered. When I opened the door, he would just standing there breathing hard and staring at me. I asked him if he was okay and at that moment, he pushed me gently away from the door and closed it behind him and then he grabbed me and stuck his tongue down my throat. There we stood, kissing and feeling up each others' bodies. In my mind, I was saying to myself "WTF is going on" while he was moaning and grinding his hard cock up against mine. Once he let me mouth come up for air...he confessed that he wanted to have sex with me and what he wanted to do to me sexually. I was speechless and even when I tried to say something, the words would not come out.
He told me that he when he had a weekend off, he wanted to spend it with me but he would let me know when that time came available. He started kissing me again whispering sexy talk in my ear between breathers...lol...Finally, after the last kiss, he told me he will call me later.
However, I did not hear or see him for the next few days after. When I finally did see him, it was as if he was going out of his way to avoid me. After going through a few days of avoidance and distance from him, I trapped him in the lobby and questioned him about his avoiding me. He took my hand and led me to the empty laundry room where informed me that he was sorry for his behavior and he was just dealing with some things. He asked me to accept his apology and gave me a kiss. To say the least, we never did get together for sex and to be honest, although I was and still is to some degree attracted to him, I was glad that nothing happened because as all of you whom had read any of my previous posts, you know that I've encountered a lot of situations with so-called, confused, straight guys and I didn't want to go through that again because from his behavior, I could tell that if something had occurred, he would go into denial and put the blame of his actions on me. Therefore, with the exception of occasional flirtation from both parties, everything was strictly platonic.
Well...this afternoon, Ruben was waiting outside of the gym and called me over to his mail van. He opened the door and asked me to have a seat. He then grabbed my leg and told me that he had been thinking about me all weekend and he wanted to take me away for the weekend. When I started to respond, he interrupted me and told me to just think about it before I give him an answer. Well, guys...I bring this to you all for your opinions....because I still stand firm on the decision of not going further sexually with him. I still feel that to go further would end our friendship altogether because I don't think he is ready to embrace the fact that he has feelings for another man yet. Even though he always let me know how much he trust me and he feel he can be himself around me but due to his confusion, I still believe that this alone is not good enough for me to give myself to him sexually. Yes, I find him very attractive and I do feel some chemistry between us sexually, however, with his background and his previous behavior and let's not forget my previous experiences, I am being very cautious. Otherwise, I am thinking with the head on my shoulders instead of the head between my legs....As always, thank you all for taking the time to read this post and offering your responses...I am very appreciative that whomever read this find interest in reading the whole story. Peace, JW:cheers:
I hope all of you are doing well and you all had a great weekend....
I have an issue that I thought I would share with the forum. This is in regard to my mailman, Ruben. Before I get into my situation, let me give you some background information on Ruben. He is the neighborhood mailman and I've been knowing him for over 15 years. He was my mailman in my old neighborhood and over the past five years, he's been my mailman for my current residence. Ruben is extremely handsome with an incredible body (he's half Greek and half Latino) and although he is known as the "ladies man" around the community, he is also a lot of gay guys' fantasy man as well especially due to the fact that he wore very tight uniform pants and in the summer time, he wore thigh hugging shorts that left nothing to the imagination. I've met Ruben in my old neighborhood initially and since that meeting, he has been a major part of my life so to speak through all the highs and lows within my personal life. There has been many times that whenever I was going through something, he would stop by during his route and check on me to see if I was okay or looking for a cup of coffee, breakfast or even a hug when he was feeling low. Once I revealed to Ruben that I was a gay man, this did not hinder our friendship at all. Even when gossiping gay guys would see us hanging out on the street and began to speculate if something was going on between us intimately, this never stopped him from distancing himself from our friendship.
Ruben began to share a lot of personal details about his life with me such as him being divorce and having teenage children. He would tell me about his current girlfriend and seek my advice on certain issues he was dealing with also. Many times, Ruben would come by and hang out with me on his off time. He was known for bringing beer and ordering pizza and hanging out all night watching movies with me whenever I was not out on a date or dating anyone seriously at the time. Ruben would always question me about being single because since he had been hanging out with me a lot, he felt that I was a great catch and found it hard to believe why no one had been knocking down my door? Once I explained to him that being single at that time was a personal choice, it wasn't much longer after that he became very protective and selfish of whom I was dating.
He knew the guy who had sexually attacked me and he knew my late partner as well. When I was enduring the aftermath of these two tragic events, he was there for me and would sometimes stay the night whenever I was alone. I remember when the sexual abuser and I began to hang out a lot, he had mentioned to me several times that he felt that Ruben was jealous of us seeing each other which prompted him to come to the conclusion that Ruben had a crush on me. In fact, the sexual abusers' father would tease me about Ruben whenever he and I would indulge in one-on-one conversation. When I would question him about why he would say that, he would tell me also that he had noticed how Ruben would act whenever he saw me.
Nonetheless, I never took none of this information to heart until Michael and I became a couple. Although he respected Michael and treated him nice whenever he was in his company, but he did not act the same when he saw me. However, whenever he saw me alone, he would make a point to ask me if Michael was treating me good. There were times when he would tell me about other gay guys hitting on him as if he was hoping I would get jealous or if I walked by one of the local restaurants while jogging, he would make a point to knock on the window to get my attention because he was with a woman but I would tease him about it which would make him change the subject. It was also a common practice for me to give Ruben a six-pack of Heineken every Christmas which he always felt was a thoughtful gesture from me but there were times that I wondered if he took my kind gesture for more than what was presented by the way he would look at me.
Last year over the Christmas holidays, he came by during his mail route and asked me to give him a hug because he needed one from me. He closed the door and dropped his mail bag on the floor and he grabbed me so tight and so long that I began to sensed that it was much more going on that meets the eye but I needed more proof before confirming my assumptions. After the hug, he kissed me on the neck and asked me if I wasn't busy, could he stop by later on that evening because he needed someone to talk to. In my mind, I'm wondering why he's not going to his current girlfriend? (he has a lot of female friends...) but nonetheless, I told him yes because as I stated earlier, he has always been there for me. He brought over a few bottles of wine and Chinese food. After the first bottle of wine, Ruben had gotten quite comfortable and began to take off his shoes and shirt. In fact, he became so comfortable that when I was laid out on the couch, he came over and opened my legs and laid in between them with my arms wrapped around his upper torso. Although nothing sexual happened, we did fell asleep into each others' arms and he stayed the rest of the night cuddled up in my arms.
A few days later, I was coming home from the neighborhood gym and Ruben was in the lobby putting mail in the mailboxes. When I saw him, he was on his cell phone and therefore, I just waved and all of a sudden, he pulled me up against the wall with this devilish smile on his face and trapped me with his body where I wasn't able to move while still having a conversation with someone on his cell phone. While holding his cell phone with one hand, he took his other hand and put my hands on his butt while he grind his cock up against my crotch until I felt the stiffness of his cock. He finally moved his body and let me go on about my business. However, within a few minutes, I hear a knock on my door and when I looked through the keyhole, I figured it had to be him because anyone else would have to be buzzed in or would call from the lobby to be entered. When I opened the door, he would just standing there breathing hard and staring at me. I asked him if he was okay and at that moment, he pushed me gently away from the door and closed it behind him and then he grabbed me and stuck his tongue down my throat. There we stood, kissing and feeling up each others' bodies. In my mind, I was saying to myself "WTF is going on" while he was moaning and grinding his hard cock up against mine. Once he let me mouth come up for air...he confessed that he wanted to have sex with me and what he wanted to do to me sexually. I was speechless and even when I tried to say something, the words would not come out.
He told me that he when he had a weekend off, he wanted to spend it with me but he would let me know when that time came available. He started kissing me again whispering sexy talk in my ear between breathers...lol...Finally, after the last kiss, he told me he will call me later.
However, I did not hear or see him for the next few days after. When I finally did see him, it was as if he was going out of his way to avoid me. After going through a few days of avoidance and distance from him, I trapped him in the lobby and questioned him about his avoiding me. He took my hand and led me to the empty laundry room where informed me that he was sorry for his behavior and he was just dealing with some things. He asked me to accept his apology and gave me a kiss. To say the least, we never did get together for sex and to be honest, although I was and still is to some degree attracted to him, I was glad that nothing happened because as all of you whom had read any of my previous posts, you know that I've encountered a lot of situations with so-called, confused, straight guys and I didn't want to go through that again because from his behavior, I could tell that if something had occurred, he would go into denial and put the blame of his actions on me. Therefore, with the exception of occasional flirtation from both parties, everything was strictly platonic.
Well...this afternoon, Ruben was waiting outside of the gym and called me over to his mail van. He opened the door and asked me to have a seat. He then grabbed my leg and told me that he had been thinking about me all weekend and he wanted to take me away for the weekend. When I started to respond, he interrupted me and told me to just think about it before I give him an answer. Well, guys...I bring this to you all for your opinions....because I still stand firm on the decision of not going further sexually with him. I still feel that to go further would end our friendship altogether because I don't think he is ready to embrace the fact that he has feelings for another man yet. Even though he always let me know how much he trust me and he feel he can be himself around me but due to his confusion, I still believe that this alone is not good enough for me to give myself to him sexually. Yes, I find him very attractive and I do feel some chemistry between us sexually, however, with his background and his previous behavior and let's not forget my previous experiences, I am being very cautious. Otherwise, I am thinking with the head on my shoulders instead of the head between my legs....As always, thank you all for taking the time to read this post and offering your responses...I am very appreciative that whomever read this find interest in reading the whole story. Peace, JW:cheers:
