Poem: Afraid of what?

[glamfunk84]

As a kid, I often was scared
But of what, I wonder
Obviously a monster had to had been under my bed
But it was only the sound of a plumber

Funnies aside as I grow up
Time goes by and I'm starting to run amok
From sensations unclear to me
The sensation that was within me

When I took my first kiss
I wonder what would happen to me on that forbidden bliss
But little did I know that first loves you always miss
And you wish sometimes you had went along with their little tryst

Graduation approaches and I wondered again
Where would I ever see the sunshine at ten?
Will love welcome me or will I be engulfed in hate?
Or will I just be indifferent and slate

The thoughts of getting old ponder
And I wonder what time I have left to wonder
But as I wonder I suddenly stop
And think to myself in my mind

Did I really leave anything behind?
Did I really have to always wonder what was not to wonder
What was it that I was afraid of?
A dream that I knew wouldn't come true or a nightmare waiting to happen

Why didn't I take risks?
Why didn't I go for the extreme?
Why did I wait so long to be free?

And then the thought hit me like a somersault
And I was afraid of... afraid of what?

 

[Jamie]

Nice! this poem makes me wonder...about things I should have or shouldn`t have done in my life til now...big question mark

 

[XMan101]

Good stuff

Never be afraid - if we were all afraid we'd never do anything

 

[hammervice]

yeah makes me think , good job thanks for sharing dis

 

[glamfunk84]

Thanx guys. I kinda wrote that off the top of my head.

 

[garwin]

Great! I've been afraid all my life to be who I am - too worried about what other people would think of me. Damn! Wish I had understood the power of internalized homophobia! It's taken a long time to face this oppression, but I know it was this oppression that kept me afraid - of what? You touched me with your words. Thanks!

 

[glamfunk84]

^^ Aww thanks for the kind words.