A few weeks ago, I ran into a guy that used to stay a few blocks down from the place that I used to live. He was very good looking, walked around in either really tight jeans or little clothing as possible. He's charming and very pleasant with everyone. He was openly gay but was very masculine that you would have never known this until he mentioned it. Unfortunately, when we ran into each other, his appearance had changed drastically. I could tell that he was enduring some challenges within his life which displayed an addiction to alcohol and drugs in his behavior. I found this disappointing due to the fact that he was such a health freak when I was initially introduced to him that he never indulged in either whenever they were present. I had such a crush on him at the time and when he grabbed me and his hands started roaming over my body, it took me back to that time. After we went our separate ways, later on that evening and few others as well, I had dreams of he and I having sex but the dreams always ended in total disappointment on my part because the sex was not as I had imagined it would be.