Help me im gay and afraid :(

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I want it so bad dude
but i cant .. i have a great job here and my family needs me



im from indoensia stay with my parents and i am graduated and im working im just confused
i live with 2 step brothers and step dad (i dont like this)

In general, Indonesian people are pretty tolerant towards gay people. I have never heard any gay bashing in this country. Well some people will love to make fun of you, but that's just it.

Some incident involving Islam fundamentalists and GLBT community were recorded when those fundamentalists were trying to end a GLBT conference by force.

Many famous effeminate men who are supposedly gay appear regularly in television and they are quite welcomed by society.

So I believe if you maintain "don't ask don't tell" attitude then you'll be just fine.

I am an Indonesian living in Central Java by the way...