How did you sexual feelings develop?

[AleXXX UK]

My earliest memory was when I was about 5 and having a strong desire to look at someone else's pee pee. Not sure if it was sexual or just curiosity but i remember it being quite overpowering. When I was 11 just before puberty I remember having recurring and very hot dreams of seeing my male PE teacher naked and that he had a cock like a jumbo hotdog. When I was 12 I remember seeing some French porn playing card that a friend had snuck into school. The one that fired up an intense hotness in me was seeing a guy getting blowed for the first time. This was early 90s and pre-Internet. At 14 I was at a friends house and his his mother was out he put on a porno. That was the first time I saw someone else .

How were your early experiences?

 

[josh_the_hot_boy]

Well lets see I worked backstage at a male strip club when I was 11 hahaha no but seriously. When I was in middle school I had this friend and you know I was discovering my feelings and what not and I became curious about him and what it would be like to mess around with someone.

 

[transuckslut]

I was probably around 7 or 8, had a desire to be snatched and abused by some random man, I didnt even know why or what for but I just had heard about things like that and thought it sounded exciting lol

I also wanted to roll around on a bed naked with my dad.

 

[jw4833]

I have two early memories of when I noticed my sexual feelings developing. However, I will share one with the forum. When I was in the eleventh grade, we had to take gym three times a week. There was this guy who was very popular and very cute to say the least. What I found shocking and surprising was the fact that whenever I was in the locker room by myself, he would come in totally naked and would hold these conversations with me like everything was normal. In fact, I begin to notice that these "naked chats" were calculated because there would be times when other guys would be in the locker room and he would not take off his clothes or appear naked in front of them. The only time that I can recall him appearing naked in front of other guys were in the actual gym and he and I were wrestling and he stood up and took off all his clothes in order to feel comfortable and he had a semi-hard on.

As much as I made attempts to suppress my feelings toward him in a sexual nature especially since I had a very popular girlfriend, everything came to realization one day while in the locker room helping the gym coach clean up the place and he saw me and pretended as if he was about to take a shower and stood there naked and started singing to me and talking gibberish. All of a sudden, he grabbed me and started hugging me really tight and then started humping me. I felt his cock getting hard at the same time and then he kissed me on my neck.

Needless to say, I got very uncomfortable and ran out. He started laughing. Now mind you, he too had a cheerleader girlfriend whom he claimed to love so much. However, since that incident in the gym locker room, he made every attempt to get my attention outside of the gym class. One time, while in Biology, we were assigned to groups and everyone in the group had been situated in a circle. He was sitting right across from me and when I looked up from my book, he was staring at me with a devilish grin on his face. His eyes motioned for me to look down and what I saw was that he had pulled his cock out of his pants and it was totally hard and huge.

I felt the blood rushed throughout my body with excitement and yet, I acted very nonchalant in front of him. From this point on, I realized that I had sexual feelings for men but was afraid to act on them which became extremely difficult as time progressed.

 

[Casanova]

I was 7 when I admired one of the guys in my class, when I was 9 one of the kids next to me told me I was cute, and I blushed thinking this is wrong but feels right. That same year I saw a guy in his speedos and it's strange, but I can still remembered what he looked like, the expression on his face and the colour of his briefs.

I was 10 when I fell head over heels for my best friend, and I was obsessed with him for almost 10 years. I had boyfriends and girlfriends during those times and I still fancied him.

I had 3 girlfriends, and in all cases the girls ended the relationship because whenever they mentioned sex I'd change the subject. Those years were the toughest years for me, because it was at that point I realised that I'm not the same as other guys.

To be honest, before this I simply thought that every guy felt this way until I realised that I had no interest in my girlfriends when my mates did. Those were the days I really wanted my friend (the one I crushed on) to be with me.

Then I decided to try it out with a guy, and the first time a man told me he loved me, and I told him I loved him, I cried. I cried for 3 hours in his arm. Needless to say he dumped me 3 months later, and I never regard him as my bf, but he was the one who made the first major change in my life..

One year later I began regretting it all. I didn't want to be gay because I was scared of being one of the stereotypes (I know it sounds silly, but this actually freaked me out more than you can imagine) and it was my second boyfriend who told me all I had to do was be me. I don't have to fit in with the gay stereotype. I don't have to go to clubs, or all the crazy stuff, just be myself and be happy, and since then things improved and it was thanks to him I am now more contented with myself and my sexuality and my sexual feelings.

 

[Otage]

Remenbering the new neighbour kids oldest brother being cute, I was brolly 5 then. It has always been quite clear, but still for some reason a big secret. And since then, brolly every 2/10 boy being cute in some part of my life

 

[HettoreConti]

I was probably 4-5 when I discovered I had a particular predilection for the muscular, toned bodies of the male protagonists of cartoons such as "He-Man" and the "Thundercats" -the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles were also in the mix-. With their perfect, well balanced physique and skintight outfits, leaving little to one's childish imagination. Such a dream, they were.

Then, when I was 13, I came to the conclusion that there was a word for my predilections; twas' "homosexuality". Although I grew up in a VERY conservative family/society, I never knew we, homosexuals, were looked down upon. Perhaps because I lived in a bubble for the majority of my childhood and pre teen years, perhaps because since a very early age I was alienated from most of society and conteporaries, or perhaps I was -and still am- a bit simple and I just never thought much of it. The rest is history.

 

[tonka]

When I was a lad, being gay just wasn't part of a child's knowledge. I was about 7, and walking down the main city street in the neighborhood. A young man walked by in shorts. He was in his 20s, blond with hairy legs. I turned around and followed him for a few blocks, admiring his body and the way he moved.
He went into a building, and I walked home. I didn't know what the feeling was, but I knew it was something I could not tell any of my family or friends.

That was a lifetime ago, but I still have the image of that random guy in my head.

 

[XMan101]

I don't have to fit in with the gay stereotype. I don't have to go to clubs, or all the crazy stuff, just be myself and be happy

Good advice, something I always lived by ! Obviously I visited the occasional club etc, and hated them, but I doubt you could ever call me a "stereotype". I've met many others over the years too who aren't sterotypical, those are actually the minority but the most visible, you'll pass many more in the street without realising it - unless they give you "that" eye contact

 

[bigsal]

I can not say how many years I had at the time. Maybe 12.

I was at the beach because I liked a girl. Then I saw it disappear behind a boat in the shed.

I followed her without being seen.

It was secluded with an older boy.

They were kissing passionately.

My attention was drawn to its cock who could no stand be in a bathing suit. It was almost entirely visible. Hard, great, wonderful.

I do not remember the face of that boy. But I remember perfectly his fucking fabulous.

 

[burmrc77]

I had a very close male friend at age 14. We just were able to talk to each other about anything and everything. At age 16 we were completely in love. Years later we are still together

 

[coolifiz]

i started in a very young age. around 7yo? Shocking right? XD

 

[toetke1]

at the age of 12 a classmate of mine started to grab my crotch during history lessons, i like it and so did he. We both touched and played with each others cock during that same history lesson. We continued to do so for the rest of the schoolyear.

 

[AleXXX UK]

i started in a very young age. around 7yo? Shocking right? XD

What? 7? Yes shocking but tell us more

 

[joejoe10]

Looking back on my childhood and not knowing what physical attraction was, I just remember wanting to hang around certain older guys as much as possible and just be around them. Whenever I was asked why I wanted to be around them, I couldn't put my finger on it and would just say "Because he's cool..." It wasn't until I was older that I could look back and realize that I had crushes on all of those guys!