hmm...maybe we are soulmates...
It just sound like you have a special passion to love others...nothing wrong with that...except you do have to learn how to support yourself....not give up everything...keep a little bit of love for yourself:hug::hug:
I don't believe in the whole change thing...been there done that and it doesn't work. I'm bi...and i can't ignore either side of my desires, or I'm very unhappy.
But I do understand it is hard to be lonely when you want to be so close and connected to someone, it does cause depression...I and many others on the forum know first hand.:hug::hug:
You need to find someone who is also a giver, a true selfless lover (do they exist?) Stay away from takers...or you will find deeper and darker depression than what you have already known.
"when im rejected, it hurts me so badly"
Just remember...the lack of a connection or rejection...isn't a negative outcome...it is a positive outcome, you weren't meant to be with that person...don't take it personal. Also, remember, there is a segment of the population, a large segment, that are just assholes, its not a negative thing to be rejected by them...it's a blessing.
a therapist,
He's The best in my country
Sorry to break this to you, but from what you have said...this guy SUCKS. Find a new doc, brmstn69 had some good suggestions. I don't know about there, but here you can work with you medical doctor on getting your meds right and work with your therapist for issues. I know it's hard in Muslim countries to find resources that aren't anti-gay, don't be afraid, but be careful.
The link below is a page to gay resources in Malaysia, including ways to contact local gay friendly health resources who can maybe help you directly or refer you to someone else who can. Wow...also lots of info on pickup places, etc.
Anonym zu www.utopia-asia.com/malapena.htm
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