Sick of life

[dargelos]

I'm glad I don't live in America, it's a wonderful country until you need medical assistance, then it becomes a nightmare unless you have insurance.
Theres not a lot you can do about that right now so I am thinking about something small that you can do. You said once that you dont have a car now and that stops you getting around. Would it help if you could get around a little by bike. I dont mean spending any money, somebody always has a rusty machine in the back of the garage they are glad to get rid of, maybe on craigslist or some site like that. Any junk heap that actualy moves is enough to get started. Now I can hear everyone going "Oh but the roads are dangerous!" Yes they are but whats more dangerous is to be stuck staring at the walls going nowhere except crazy.
If you are in average shape ten miles out, ten miles back is a good start, once you get fitter twenty miles each way is not hard. Maybe there is still nothing worth visiting in that mile range. Even so, if it gets you somewhere, anywhere, its worthwhile. And then you get fitter, which makes you look better, makes you feel better and then it's easier to get a boyfriend. Honestly, it does work, when I have been hot and sweaty on my bike I just feel so much better, ordinary worries get blown away.

 

[havocs]

I also like topdog's suggestions about helping others. You might not be giving yourself enough credit for what you can do and are capable of. As someone said, hospitals often need help with the elderly or even with the children ward or special needs. Sometimes they look for someone to just read to them. A lot of times people simply want someone to acknowledge them and to listen to them. When I feed down I ask myself what do I want out of a situation, then I make sure I project that very thing to someone else. Maybe you can look into gardening, cooking or get a part time job. Use this time to improve yourself for the future, people always look back in their life and say "when I was younger, I wish I had...."; do something now that you will look at in 10 years and say "I'm glad I did that".

 

[ERICOOL85]

-hug-

 

[c750dt]

My employer has a pretty good insurance plan and most of the in-network providers would rather bill you than turn you away and dismiss payment from their insurance. They're the ones funding my treatment for HIV. They're also always hiring and are pretty flexible but at the same time, the job is working in a 24 hour diner which isn't exactly prestigious or sexy. If you live where we operate and can slap yourself together for 8 hours at a time we'd love to have you working with us. Also we have this thing where like, if you get hungry and decide to slap a few burgers on the grill or a bunch of bacon, go ahead and just treat yourself.

EDIT: If you live in the southern U.S. then PM me and I'll link you to their website. I don't mean to sound like a corporate dick but you do seem like a pretty decent person and I I think you'd be a cool coworker.