Ive decided that there are two operative bits of my addiction. First, there is The Hunt: the wide-ranging, never ending search for the perfect video. You know... the one that you watch, whispering at the screen, "now suck his balls" (or whatever) and as if by magic the actor licks the guy's balls, etc.
Secondly, there is the idea of Escape. Im a 44yo man who's long past the stage where guys who look like porn stars would share a 30-second conversation (unless I paid for it.) But with porn I can spend a couple of hours visiting what I call The Island of Beautiful Boys. Given my cir
stances, why wouldnt I make such a visit?
As far as it spoiling relations with my boyfriend, just the opposite is true for us. Very often, a small dose of porn impels me to seek him out for real sex, usually at times when we'd otherwise be busy with mundane tasks.
I love porn. I dont understand why some ppl are so embarassed by it.