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thanks for your support with my previous posts. it seems you guys have a lot of wisdom to share.
coming out in my 40's really does feel like trying to get under, through or around a concrete mountain. i am doing every thing i possibly can to progress...lost 120 lbs in weight,started trying to build a gym body etc... i figure it might help with confidence which is otherwise very much lacking. i find doing weights the hardest thing ever...aches and pains i did not know were possible in places i did know i had !!! it seems having a good body is almost expected in gay culture.
all in all, its like waking up on a very weird planet where nothing is familiar and everything is scary. i am not usually this terrorised but having suppressed and hidden what iam for several decades is making things much more difficult. i just wish i had done this aged 17 or 18.
anyway, i wondered if anyone can share their very first experience with another guy. were you terrified, bold, confident ??? was it planned or just kind of happened?? was it easier or more difficult than you imagined?? how old were you??
your help and kindness makes a big difference to me. slowly realising iam not the only one !!
coming out in my 40's really does feel like trying to get under, through or around a concrete mountain. i am doing every thing i possibly can to progress...lost 120 lbs in weight,started trying to build a gym body etc... i figure it might help with confidence which is otherwise very much lacking. i find doing weights the hardest thing ever...aches and pains i did not know were possible in places i did know i had !!! it seems having a good body is almost expected in gay culture.
all in all, its like waking up on a very weird planet where nothing is familiar and everything is scary. i am not usually this terrorised but having suppressed and hidden what iam for several decades is making things much more difficult. i just wish i had done this aged 17 or 18.
anyway, i wondered if anyone can share their very first experience with another guy. were you terrified, bold, confident ??? was it planned or just kind of happened?? was it easier or more difficult than you imagined?? how old were you??
your help and kindness makes a big difference to me. slowly realising iam not the only one !!
