I came out on the 25.12.2020, I was forced to do so because my parents caught me having sex.
In October 2019 my girlfriend with whom I had been in a relationship for 7 years left me and this love breakup hurt me a lot.
3 months after this breakup I decided to give in to a desire that I had since April 2016 and as I was in a couple I had put this desire in a corner in my head.
This desire was to try sex between men, this desire came to me because a friend of my father was flirting with me for 15 long years but at that time not being interested in men I was calling him directly, but one day in April 2016 I went to his house to wish him a happy birthday.
That day as usual he hit on me and I told him as always that I wasn't interested in men, but that didn't stop him from continuing to hit on me, when we were chatting over a cup of coffee he started to talk to me about sex between men and he got up and took out some pictures from a locked box and told me to look at them.
On some of the pictures it was him getting his dick sucked and on others he was sodomizing guys, I don't know why but seeing such pictures of him gave me a strange effect and I felt jealous of the men he was with in the pictures and I started to imagine myself in the place of those guys, I didn't let anything show about this sudden jealousy but that's when I felt like trying out man-on-man sex
So in January 2020, 3 months after my breakup, I went to a gay sauna to have my first experiences with guys, during this first visit to a gay sauna I just sucked 2 men and I really liked it. Between January 2020 and March 2020 I went 6 times to the sauna and I tried 3 different ones and each time I just sucked.
After my last visit to a sauna in March 2020 I was planning to go back but unfortunately for me there was a lockdown.
During the beginning of the lockdown I was thinking a lot about my dad's friend (I was already thinking about him since I saw the pictures of him with other guys), I was looking for an idea to go to his place (he lives 20 minutes away from my place by car).
At the beginning of April 2020 I remembered that it was the month of his birthday and I made the choice that it would be me his birthday present.
As it was the confinement here in France, the day of his birthday I filled out an exit form in case of police control.
Once at the friend's house I wished him a happy birthday and he, as he always does, hit on me, but this time I let him and said nothing.
At one point he told me that I was dying stupid not to have tried the guys, that's when I smiled and I told him "and if for your birthday your gift is me and like that I would not die stupid" he looked at me several seconds without saying anything then ended up asking me if I was serious that I was not making a joke.
After confirming that yes I was serious and that it was not a joke he got up and came towards me and looking me straight in the eyes he said then in this case you do not see any inconvenience that I kiss you.
We then made out and went to his room where we made love.
Let's go back to the 25.12.2020 it had been 8 months since I had an intimate relationship with my father's friend and nobody knew about it, like every year I spent Christmas Eve with my parents and my father's friend was there too because this year he was alone for Christmas Eve so to avoid that my parents invited him.
So the 25.12.2020 my parents left us alone at home because they left at 10:30 to pick up my aunt and uncle at the station, their train was supposed to arrive at 11:30 but here in France the trains are always late.
When they left I was having lunch and the friend of my father was on his tablet that he had just had, as soon as we heard the car move away we took the opportunity to kiss and say Merry Christmas then we put ourselves on the sofa in front of the television one against the other and we were making out.
We weren't paying attention to the time but I ended up getting up to take a shower, my dad's friend joined me a few minutes later and we played in the shower, we were having a good time, we weren't paying attention to anything and then one thing led to another and I started to suck him off and he ended up sodomizing me.
We were so busy that we didn't hear them come back, my father probably alerted by our moans opened the bathroom door shouting "NO BUT WHAT ARE YOU DOING UNDER MY ROOF IN MY BATHROOM? WHO TOLD YOU THAT YOU COULD DO YOUR GAY COCKS IN HERE?" and he finished by yelling at me "SINCE YOU CHANGED BOARD YOU AND SINCE YOU WERE PERVERTED IN THIS?".
My mom managed to calm my dad down, but that night when my sisters and brothers, nieces and nephews were there for a family Christmas dinner my dad got up and said I had an announcement to make.
He looked at me and said go ahead now that we are all together as a family tell everyone what you love, tell them what you are doing with JC, tell them that you have been perverted to sex with men.
I was embarrassed but out of defiance I stood up and said "well like my dear father said I do things with JC, you know I had a break up that hurt me and I started having relationships with guys and because I liked it I ended up giving in to JC who you all knew had been hitting on me for many years, Thanks to that I managed to overcome this break up quickly and if the fact that I also like men bothers you know that it doesn't matter to me, I am as I am and it is not that which makes me a different man from what I am, if you don't like it you can leave the table.
That's how my coming-out was done, my father was the only one to leave the table. After that we didn't speak again until the summer of 2022.
Since then he has been doing everything to make up for his imbecility and behavior
