as a bottom I want to be absolutely clean (enemas) when im with a guy, probly why I don't bottom with a real cock that often and prefer dildos.(thank god i love deepthroating)
the main problem I had, was when I started bottoming (around 18) I was bottoming with other young guys (20s), and since we're so desensitised by porn, we both think anal sex must be always clean. so when I had an accident for the first time, lets just say the burnt child dreads the fire.
since than ive started to douche after each motion, to the point nowdays i feel disgasted with myself even if i used wet washes.
and now being almost 30, i feel like an idiot when i hook up with older guys cos they all know accidents can happen, and don't really worry about it. yet im still enemaing all the time and freaking out about having accidents that i cant fully relax and let them pound my hole and enjoy it.
looking back i wish my first was and older guy..