Everyone will understand that you are a different Shelter now. Things that used to matter don't matter, now you have one priority only. I don't have a god to pray to but I will pray anyway. The shock will be so horrendous that you can't take it all in yet. For the first week you will be living on adrenaline, then the hard slog of coping starts. You have to keep yourself strong because that's what your dear mother needs to see, she will draw courage from your courage. German hospitals have a very good survival rate, I'm sure she'll get the finest treatment possible, and one day the doctors will have some good news.