Dear Deef,
As you can see I'm still here and I follow you.
Suicide is not a solution. Although it takes a lot of courage to make this gesture, it is always an act of cowardice, like not to want deal with the problems of life.
Your parents hate you? Then you do not deserve the love of their child.
Rather than making a gesture as suicide, runs away from home and left it all behind (just an option), better than suicide.
Remember that the human being is born free. If someone have previously tried to imprison you, it's time to get rid of.
I suggest you read this thread. You'll find that life is not easy for anyone. It's up to us to change the course of our life.
http://www.gayheaven.org/t297454-have-you-ever-disowned-or-been-disowned.html
Everyone is master of his own destiny.
Hello, thanks for following me. It means a lot for me. I'm of the opinion that suicide isn't cowardice. I think that it's a way to solve so much problem with that human being can't manage. I can't run away from home because of one simply problem. I don't have money, I have problem with my mind (you know, depression, obsessive-compulsive neurosis, social anxiety disorder) Oh God. :/
I understand my dear, that life sucks totally. But... it's still hopeless and I don't see point in living. In my case "living" is only sitting at my room and thinking about new, better life or suicide. I fuck that kind of live. Really.
My friend Deef is back.
And I started that way because it's really important. We are your friends. Reach out to us. Tell us what's going on. ( Your last post was pretty scary, but pretty sketchy). Many of us have gone through really bad times, and come out the other side. With more wisdom, and
a better way forward.
Hang in there, my friend.
Hmm, I have really fucked mind, my grandmother died in my arms, I have started studies but I gave up and then I started another kind of studies and now I gave up again!!, my kitten somewhere gone, someone overshot my dog - and he's in really bad condition..., my parents keep fighting with me and they want to send me to a psychiatric hospital because of social phobia. And i'm a such ugly person and additionally, I'm totally stupid! :worried:
Thanks for call on me "friend". It's nice.
LOTS of our hands hangng out there deef...just reach out! You'll grab on to one and probably many more.
look brother....MOST of us here have been at that point. You think you're totally FUCKED UP with everything in life and there is no one there to help. LOOK AROUND....You found your way here...check it again...GH has the most wonderful cast of characters and misfits you can ever imagine! We're not one singular community....we're like 100 different campsites around a big fucking forest and YOU DECIDE where you want to PITCH YOUR TENT!p
in other words...we're all cool AND different so welcome Deef! You're NOT alone
pm me for further proof,
g33
Thanks,
I know that everyone is cool here (except me!), I met here one lovely person form London. He's my penpal. I really like him.
But honestly... I'm think that I'm not fit to gay society. I'm not fit anywhere!
It seems that you're somewhere where you don't want to be. So imagine where you would like to be, make a plan and start work on it. And stop think abou suicide. Probably you think you're in shit, totally. But maybe you're on the start of something what is far better than anything what you've have ever experienced. You never can tell. If you think your at the bottom, best thing you can do is bounce back and swim up. We are willing to give you some advices if you want. But first you have to know where do you want to be, and next work on it.
I don't want live in this town, when I see faces who I hate, I need throw up!
I thought that when I'll start study I will change, I thought that I'll feel that I'm living... Actually I gave up studies because of social phobia.. It's destroing my life
and to be honest
I hate myself and people the most I can!
And I can't stop thinking about suicide because when I think about that shit I feel relaxed and it show me another point to solve my stupid problems.
PS. I miss you, guys
