This period of my life is the worst! I'm feeling so depressed.. so hopeless... I don't have anyone I can talk to.. and I don't wan't... maybe I don't need... I'm feeling like some teenage girl before puberty... I don't know what I want, WHO I AM... what to do with my life... the years are passing, I'm getting older...I still don't know what I'm doing.....
I'm locked in cage without lock.... where is the golden key to open.......................
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Happines isn't what you have, but you do. Othervise every rich model would be the happiest one of all. It's about what you do, like hobbies, job etc. You need to find what you wanna do. Start over time putting things on paper, things you wanted to, thing you value, and then see what of those you could - or are already doing - in job or hobby form.
And if happines would be about what you have, you would end up in endless circle, which has no end. To put it simply ( I don't know your situtation, but just trying to give some advice) just find out what you wanna do, and start doing it. And to know what that is, is to think (take some time, don't do nothing, just let your mind go) or start doing the list. It's the journey to be enjoyed, not the destination, cause then you'll just have to find some new destination. And it's not happy pill, it's not instant, it's a project, which everybody can start doing.
I have shitty job with bad pay, most of my friends have moved to other cities etc etc. But atm I'm extatic about playing my guitar which I bought after xmas. I always wanted to know how to play acoustig and sing at the same time, I studied it on the net, and found that with just few chords you can play songs etc. I already can play poorly and know more than few chords
You gotta roll your goals slowly, rushing causes stress. I have plans, and I push them ahead a bit every now and then, and accomplishing them gives my everydaylife bit more meaning. Of course my values and view on life is also very loving
But like said on the thread, you can give your troubles for us to ponder if you want, and I'm sure we will try our best to give advice
And aging, I feel lot happier now than I was at teen years. My worldview has growed with me, and I feel I can control my future at least a bit, even though it isn't easy and fast, but I'm slowly thriving towards what I want (not even sure what that is
), but for example, I wanna move closer to city center so I can have some nice summer day coffee at cafeterias outside, almost straight from the bed, and go shopping walking without desperatly trying to find parking space
Life is about those little things and projects, they fill our day.
