Electric_XII
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Yeah, there's a lot of 'kiss' fans here...
Years & years ago I became suicidal. Thankfully I just don't care about much of anything anymore.
I called one of those hotlines. I was told to stay on the line & someone would be with me shortly. I was placed on HOLD for 2 1/2 hours. The number at that time was 800-638-Help. This Number NO LONGER exists. They had only 1 person manning the phones. I was so pissed off by the time the 'helper' answerred that I bitched him out & promised an end to the hotline crap. I received 2 'special' visits in the next week. A year later the hotline was gone.
I still suffer from some strong depression. Have been told I need meds (which I can't afford). Should probably be seeing someone about it---BUT like I said above, I simply just don't seem to CARE about much anymore. & Nothing seems to be That Bothersome to me now.
But thanks for the post. For some that Choose to read it all the way thru; it will be helpful.
It can be difficult sometimes living day to day especially when you have emotional problems or when you just struggle in everyday life. I know I do sometimes and I was surprised when I overheard my mother say that people who commit suicide are selfish. I didn't know she felt this way and it kind of hurts. It can be excruciatingly difficult when living with depression and other mental disorders. When a person feels bad enough to consider this action selfish is the last thing I would consider them. They often feel that people would be better without them. Maybe she is just uneducated I would hope or maybe she's just ignorant but I hope this isn't the case. Hearing her say that made me realize she understands way less than I thought she did. Well I'm sure she means well.
Maybe I should just talk to her and Ps is my font really that big?
Being gay is a very youth orientated thing. I'm 50 and I've gained over 75lbs in the last 2 years. I had 200 friends and 199 died of AIDS over the last 25 years. It's all about face and body, I feel cheated that I will never have a family of my own. Being gay is livable as long as your young and cute. Trust, I had my day. I was fine and had body but now I'm bald and fat. I've been unemployed for the last 3 years. I really don't have much to live for. So the thought comes to my mind sometimes. People really don't like old fags....
http://anonym.to/?http://www.primetimersww.org/Prime Timers Worldwide is a social organization that provides
older gay & bisexual men the opportunity to enrich their lives.
Membership open to men 21 years and older.
WWW hike, it doesn't matter how old you are, you are still a valuable person. The world needs you just as much as anyone else.
I hear you man (54 here). Losing the generation of friends one was looking forward to growing old with really sucks, eh?
Have you tried Prime Timers?
http://anonym.to/?http://www.primetimersww.org/
Other ways to combat loneliness would include volunteering at any local LGBT (or LGBT-friendly Str8) community center or charitable organization.
Just try a few & find one (or more) which can serve as a vehicle for the things which you enjoy doing and/or would like to learn how to do.
Keeping busy by helping others will lead to making many new acquaintances leading to a few new friends.
If one can't get out & about that easily, then haunt those internet forums which allow one to be the on-line equivalent of a good listener and problem solver for younger, less experienced members of society.
Though I prefer talking/typing to others in public threads like this one in order to have the exchange of viewpoints and ideas develop int a record of events which may helpful to others, I am open to being PM'd by anyone who needs to discuss a more private matter.
Your so right, as a consequence of all of my contemporaries dying from the black death; I have very few friends from my youth in my life, I have no one to grow old with.
You have made some wonderful suggestions and your 100% right. I have to keep myself relevant and help the next generation. Thank you for taking the time out to help me.